H was born on Monday, May 3, but his birth story begins on Sunday, May 2.
Leading up to the birth, C and I had been so very busy. She was working a lot of long hours, and it was all I could do to keep up with my own to-do lists, having just moved into a new house, and getting bigger, slower, and more tired with each passing day. But Sunday, May 2 was a wonderful day.
We had set aside the day to spend some time with each other and not stress too much about doing things. We went out for breakfast, installed the car seats, and headed out antiquing. We didn’t buy anything, but had a great time browsing, and stumbled upon another antique store completely by accident that was amazing. We also found a Mexican restaurant, where we had really yummy tacos. We arrived back home that afternoon feeling pleased as punch about our day, and decidedly high on life. It felt like it had been ages since we had a nice, relaxing day together, and it was exactly what we needed.
I remember sitting in the living room together chatting, and I said “I wonder how you feel like…the day before you go into labor, you know? I mean, last week I had those few days where I was convinced he was coming at any minute, but now I just feel kind of normal…”
That night we tackled one of the big items on my Before Baby To Do List – our upholstered headboard project. We have a platform bed with no headboard, and I really wanted to make an upholstered headboard for it before the The Baby arrived so I would have something comfortable to lean against when nursing in bed. I had started the project a week before, and that night, we completed it – C holding the headboard steady while I sat on the floor with my big belly, attaching it to our bed frame with the power drill.
Feeling great about our lovely day together and having checked the car seat installation and headboard project off the To Do List, we talked to The Baby in my belly, saying, “It’s okay to come out now. We’re ready for you.” C, who was facing a long week at work ahead said to him, “Mommy doesn’t want to go work tomorrow. You can come out tonight if you want to.” We both laughed, not thinking that he was listening!
Fast forward to 4:30 a.m. on Monday, May 3 – I woke up to pee and felt the incredibly odd sensation of my water breaking as I sat on the toilet. The Baby was coming!
I woke up C and spoke to the midwife on call at the birth center. Of course we both assumed I was in for a long day of laboring, being a first time mom, and so she suggested I get some rest and then come in to the birth center for my scheduled 9:40 a.m. appointment. From there, things happened pretty fast. Looking back on it now, we realize that I either slept through the early stage of labor, or skipped it all together. Because there was no leisurely laboring where you go for a stroll around the block or watch a movie. No sir-ee. I had one hour of peace from 4:30-5:30 a.m., and then we went straight to really intense, fairly regular contractions. I puked during one of the first few, and soon they were so painful that none of my laboring positions seemed to help!
C and I were both kind of surprised and confused by how things were going. We had taken Bradley Method childbirth classes, so we felt pretty prepared for labor, but what was happening didn’t really seem to line up with what we had learned about and expected. What happened to that early/easy labor? If it’s already this intense…how bad is it going to get? C sprung into action, packing snacks and making sure we had everything we needed to take with us to the birth center, and checking on me in between.
Since moving to the ‘burbs, we are about an hour’s drive from the birth center, but it was Monday morning, approaching rush hour time, so we knew traffic would be hell. At about 8:00 we decided to leave. That was kind of a gut-wrenching moment for me. All I wanted to do was stay home. The last place I wanted to be was in the car, in traffic. My contractions were very intense by that point, and I was having constant, horrible pain in my lower back. Still thinking that we had a long day ahead of us (while the contractions were super intense, they weren’t that close together, and still kind of irregular), we dreaded the thought of sitting in rush hour traffic, only to be told at the birth center that I was too early in labor to be admitted. We considered for a brief moment waiting another hour or two…but then settled on leaving. (Thank goodness.)
I propped myself between pillows in the front seat of the car and off we went. What followed was, to say the least, a very challenging hour and a half. I do not know how C handled rush hour with such calmness and grace, while I groaned and wailed in the seat next to her, but she was a rockstar. I did all I could to not look out the windows at the traffic. I was breathing through the contractions, occasionally glancing at the clock on the dash to get an idea as to how far apart they were. It was really hard to time them, because the super duper back pains made it seem like there was no break in the pain. I could tell they were getting closer together though. C held my hand through them when she could (navigating Boston rush hour sometimes requires two hands on the wheel!), and told me again and again that I was doing great and we’d be there soon.
Throughout the drive I was worrying a lot… I was in so much incredible pain, and I kept thinking… This isn’t even the worst of it! How am I going to get through this if this is just the beginning? I’m a wimp! As time passed I could feel myself moaning and wailing – making sounds that I knew were associated with later stage, active labor. Making the noise was helpful, so I kept doing it, wondering – could I really be that far along already? I tried to reassure myself that I was going to be fine, and I could do it – that it would be better once we were out of the car.
By the time we arrived at the birth center (about 9:30/9:45 a.m.), it was hard to stand. A sweet, friendly midwife who I hadn’t met yet (you get whoever’s on call) greeted us. She asked how far apart the contractions were, and I explained how it was so hard to tell because the pain felt constant. Judging by the look on her face, I knew she was thinking, “Her water just broke at 4:30. The poor thing thinks the baby’s coming any minute, but she’s only just begun.” She explained that once the water is broken, they try to limit internal checks because of the increased risk of infection, but, “You don’t look like a woman who’s going back home… So I can check you now if you like.” I was all, “UM, NO I’M NOT GOING BACK HOME!!! IT’S TOO FAR AWAY!!!,” and explained that we’d check into a local hotel to continue laboring if it really was too soon to be admitted. I hoisted myself up onto the exam table (no small feat), and she checked me.
“Um, that’s the head,” she said. ”You’re like NINE centimeters!!” This is when I started to cry. The relief!! What I had thought was just the beginning in the car was actually the hardest part! I wasn’t a wimp, I was a CHAMPION!!!!! The midwife told us she had to go upstairs to prepare a birthing room for us and we should meet her there. On her way out the door, she stopped, turned on her heel, looked at me and exclaimed, “By the way, you’re a goddess!”
We took the elevator upstairs to the birthing room and I began the labor dance – trying to find a position that offered some relief. Mostly I chose sitting on the toilet with pillows behind my back. The midwife started to fill up the tub (this tub was okay for laboring in, but not delivering in), and I was so excited to get into some warm water. The Baby had other plans though – by the time the tub was full, it was time to start pushing.
I tried to find a position I liked to push. Laying on the bed in any way shape or form was a big fat NO – I couldn’t believe how horrible it felt to lay down! Everything in me wanted to be upright – anything else felt wrong. I remember thinking, Thank god I’m in a birth center where no one’s going to try to keep me laying in bed! I ended up using a birthing stool, kneeling on the floor and then back to the birthing stool, which is where I delivered, leaning back on C for support.
Those first couple of pushes were scary. I am so glad that we had such a wonderful midwife and were in a place where I felt safe and cared for. Because that feeling of my body compelling me to push, and the act of actually pushing the first few times HURT. It HURT A LOT. And it was a little scary. But my wife was there supporting me, and the midwife did an amazing job reassuring me and guiding me through the process. Once I got into the rhythm of pushing, it was much better, and not at all scary. I was a woman on a mission – GET THE BABY OUT.
And at 11:05 a.m. that is what I did.
Our H came out all purple and puffy and gooey and immediately pooped all over me! I held him in my arms, leaning back on my wife, and we were a family. It was incredible.
As I was taking in the amazing sight of this little person I had been growing inside me for nine months, the midwife said something about a lot of bleeding and getting me onto the bed. She examined me, then called for another midwife for a second opinion who examined me, then called in an OB/GYN from the hospital (which is next door to the birth center – they are affiliated) to take a look as well. Turns out H was a big guy who came out of my petite body fast (about an hour of pushing), and he’d done some damage on the way out. It was declared that I had a third degree tear and the OB would need to do some of the stitching due to the difficult nature of the repair. OUCH. Luckily I had my handsome boy to distract me. I got him breastfeeding, and C and I just focused on him and each other while I was stitched (which wasn’t at all as bad as I feared, but rather very strange, especially being propped up as I was in front of two midwives, a nurse, and a doctor).
We spent the rest of the afternoon lounging in bed. The nurse and midwife were ordering lunch from a local place and offered to pick something up for us too – I don’t think I’ve ever enjoyed a sandwich more! We let the nurse bathe H so we could get a better look at his hair color – which definitely looked a little bit red! By that night, we were all feeling well and healthy, so we went home at about 9:00 p.m. and got to sleep (well, we didn’t do much sleeping!) in our own bed.
So for those keeping track, we left home at 8:00 a.m., arrived at the birth center at 9:30/9:45 a.m., and H was born at 11:05 a.m., after an hour of pushing… Had we waited another hour or two to leave the house like we considered? He could have been born in the car. Yikes! But luckily it all worked out fine!
We had a great birth experience at the birth center. When I was still pregnant, one of the midwives said, “You get the midwife you are meant to have,” referring to the on-call system. She was right. I felt so safe and cared for at the birth center, and the midwife who attended the birth was an incredible support and guide for both my wife and I. We feel very lucky to have given birth in such an environment, and lucky to have avoided the medical interventions we feared the possibility of. I feel proud of myself and my wife for bringing our son into the world in the way we did.
All in all, we couldn’t have asked for a better welcome for our H:

May 3, 2010 - 8lbs 12 oz